Peeling Feelings

My ten-year-old body naked

My body tantalized, intentionally

What was the intention?

To intentionally violate my tender-heart

Attentively, I listened

to his hand’s move

up & down my tender body

CONSISTENTLY

I have rewritten this impotent

narrative since ten

At 13 I quieTENed

Forgotten

I remember laying naked on top of

his hard chest

Confused, eyelids still stuck

I felt his cold heart

I could not feel mine

How long was I on him? Who moved me from the couch?

I slightly opened my eyes

My older sister laid next to us

Unconscious

I mentally screamed her name scared

I never said yes

No, Can you hear me? No

I heard my own inner voice fade

My heart started beating fast

Like someone would hear its screams

Scared. Scarred

I laid on his hard chest as he caressed

My ten-year-old body

Squeezing my buttocks

I felt his hands warm on my skin

In and out my tiny vagina

I'd cringe and I could not feel my heart

I was wet from his sweat

A tiny body, unconscious. Naked

God help me, I mentally screamed

Until I rolled over and he stopped

My ten-year-old body naked

body tantalize

Intentionally scarred

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